Well, it’s finally time. Well not quite time, but close to time. Close enough that it’s getting all very real in my head: I will be a grandmother in a few days, a few weeks at the most. Could be two days, could be twelve, but it’s not going to be likely too much longer than that. I still can’t quite wrap my head around it, but it doesn’t matter, because regardless of where my headspace is at, this is happening.
At first, when “the kids” announced my daughter in law’s pregnancy to me, I was hesitant for them. They should have waited, they needed more time. More time to be young, to be a married couple, to enjoy life. I suppose this was in some ways practical, but in other ways totally reactionary: I became a mother at age 18. I know first hand how much that altered my course, how difficult some things became.
But they’re not 18. They’re 24 and 25. They aren’t in school, they’re well beyond college and working. They’re not living at home with a parent, they’re married and on their own.
As the months have progressed and I’ve watched my son’s baby become a visible presence, I’ve kind of marveled at how mature he is. How much he’s grown up, while still retaining his youth and fun and whimsy. He’s a kid at heart, but he’s also a 24 year old adult, and he’s acting like one. He’s saved, scrimped and prepared for this moment. They have planned and set up their life to be ready for this baby. Everything is in place. They have read, they have researched and they have done everything they can do ahead of having the child to be prepared. They’re ready.
Even if I’m not quite all there yet, they most definitely are. And I’m kind of awed and amazed by it.
So this morning, my daughter in law sends me a text. I knew she was going to the doctor today and they would “check” her to see if she was moving along. Last week they’d reported she’s been having contractions although she can’t feel them, so this week was the telling moment: would we be waiting three weeks or more or not?
The text said: “3 CM!!!!”
I know you can walk around for weeks at 3 centimeters dilated. I’ve never personally experienced 3 cm anywhere but in a hospital, but I have heard it happens. So it’s happening. Could be this weekend. Could be next week (please don’t let it happen on Monday when we’re predicted to get quite a nasty storm….and so are they). But it doesn’t seem likely that it will be much beyond then at this rate.
My grandbaby is coming. I (finally) can’t wait.