I have notebooks from when I was younger…my journals. At times when I was chronicling My Former Life (lives?) they were at times helpful in remembering those long forgotten details of those dusty memories from so long ago. And most of them include a few New Year’s Day entries, most of them either trying to [...]
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Well, I did it. On September 12 I downloaded an app for my iPhone called “Couch 2 5K”. I did it mostly because I saw a friend on Facebook posting to her page about it, and I thought, “Hey, if she can do it, I could probably do it.” It’s a nine week training program [...]
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Well I certainly don’t want to have this blog turn into a weight loss blog after the monumental stories and things I have shared here. But if I have any possible regular readers out there you may be wondering where I am at with my struggles. I completed Week 4 of the Couch 2 5K [...]
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Well, you might be wondering, how’s it going? I mean, since I started “officially” trying to do something about my ballooning waistband. Not in general, although likely the size of my waistband is in direct correlation to how I feel about the direction of my life and times at any given moment. And if that’s [...]
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When I was younger I thought that being thinner would solve all of my problems. I would be instantly surrounded with friends, boys would want to go out with me, and my crazy life would somehow find order and purpose. It’s a struggle I have fought my whole life, this inner dialouge I have with [...]
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I’d seen it all before. I recognized all of the signs. I looked at my girlfriend Jessica from across the room at the town library early that summer. She was the mother I’d met at special needs playgroup, whose son shared the same diagnosis as my own, had traded “life is hard” stories with me [...]
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Now that I had two boys to look good for, and a Prom dress to shop for, I decided it was time to get in shape (again). I wasn’t actually displeased with how I looked overall. I remember thinking at the time that in the right clothes “you can’t tell I’m fat”. Which for me [...]
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I tried to run away that spring. I was tired, and angry. It happened one cold Saturday afternoon when my mother was expecting her friend Janice and her baby Matthew for an afternoon of talking and eating and baby time. Dawn was still staying with us. My sister’s friend was still staying with us. My [...]
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The biggest event in my life up until that point happened in the summer of 1985. Well, two things that added up to one. As someone with chronically low self esteem, my weight and my looks were areas of major concern for me. I was short and my body type tended toward the chubby side. [...]
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I was always looking for the quick fix. Who isn’t, I guess. Since I’d figured out that stealing stuff wasn’t going to make me cool or hip in the eyes of my peers (to be fair, I was swiping Smurf figurines and Barbie furniture as a seventh grader, instead of makeup and leg warmers), plus [...]
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