My Former Vs. My Current Life

So…this is where I always thought the blog would end.  “My Former Life”…well the last entry was about an event that occurred 11 months ago, my 40th birthday.  An event that was the whole idea behind this blog, hoping to find some peace and closure over the event of my impending 40th birthday.  And honestly, [...]

Happy Birthday

I sat in the front seat, blindfolded, a gaggle of giggles surrounding me in the SUV. “Where are you guys taking me?” I laughed, trying to go along with the good natured fun my three girlfriends clearly had meticulously planned. It was my 40th birthday.  I had wondered how the evening would play out, with [...]

My Father’s Birthday

We were sitting in the breakfast area of the Hampton Inn with my father. It was Labor Day weekend, and this year, my father’s 70th birthday fell on the Saturday of that weekend. Two years ago, R’s mother had thrown a splashy, expensive party for his father when he’d turned 70.  We didn’t have enough [...]

Last Times Are Hard

February 8, 1993 Monday morning.   I liked getting up nice and early these days so that I knew no matter what happened while I was trying to get out of the house in the morning, I was going to be able to absorb the bumps. It didn’t really matter that I’d been sleeping on the [...]

Amethysts

February 8, 1992. It was my mother’s 52nd birthday.  I had the idea that now that we all were living in the same area again, with things going well seemingly for all of us, that we give our mother a fancy birthday gift and dinner to celebrate. My brother had come home from the Navy [...]

First Birthday

The summer of 1990 passed quickly after that.  I spent my summer days going to classes at the university, fulfilling a full time schedule during those warm months that would enable me to start my first stint of student teaching in the winter term.  Wayne State asked its students to fulfill three semesters of student [...]

Visiting Hours

He looks like him. That was the first thing I thought of when I looked at my son.  He had Joe’s coloring, his hair color.  His eyes were dark, dark blue, which everyone told me meant his eyes would turn brown within the first year of life.  Everything about him, including his sex, was more [...]

Promises in the Dark

This post will post on my fortieth birthday.  How appropriate.  The biggest game changer in my life, and my thoughts about it will be laid bare on my fortieth birthday.  Oh, there’s so much to say about it, looking back nearly 22 years later.  Getting back there, getting back to that place in my head [...]

Happy Birthday

Crazily, the summer sped by, and soon it was my birthday. I had always hated the placement of my birthday in early September.  It made it hard to have birthday parties (not that anyone really ever planned one for me as a child) because you never knew exactly who would be in your class, and [...]